Doing better :)

Good evening folks :)

I do better!! I was afraid the seeds didn`t do much of a job since i continued having allot of activity and the recent busts haven`t been very sucsessful. But i guess this is just how it it, sometimes it just is what it is :)

The difference now compared with before is that i stay calmer and everything`s just stay calmer. Since i started the treatment i have gradually rebuild and gained my physical and psychical strenght back up again. Also i have allot more trick in my sleeve now and in general i can meet this horrible beast for a more "fair" kind of battle. Being much stronger also make me manage more everyday pain or issues, like shadows, low kip hits etc etc. CrossFit is also a huge motivation factor, it motivates me to stay strong and keep it up, cause i would so much like to go do this!! :-)

I really feel i live my sec life. I was given life back again. That is huge to be only 31 years old :) Lucky me :)


"Happiness is not achieved by the conscious pursuit of happiness, it is generally the by-product of other activites."

Aldous Huxley


Lucky hug from a happy girl :)

Tingeling

Little bit of everything

Hi

At the Science factory yesterday. The kids are trying out a brainwave game. The one who can concentrate best wins. It measures  Alpha and Theta waves. The kids really impressed me, they were focusing really really hard!!

This is a place were learning by doing is the idea, i believe in that. They hve allot of different things to try. You can try out how Ohm`s law works by serial connect engines f ex.

We h ad a good time :)

Over to my head, again... LOL :-) I have been feeling back and forth, but in general leaning towards the wrong way. My hole body started to swell up and allot of different symptoms. Also i had that constant migrain for the last months or so. In  April a very nasty high cycle starts so i thoguth i would try some seeds again and did some last night. My head are super stuffed and i feel extremely tired. Went out grocery shopping in the middle of the day and got complety pumped. Not been able to do anything else for the rest of the day. But that`s alright. Still got that bothering migrain on the right side, starting to wonder what that`s all about. Let`s hope it will fade the next days. Crossing fingers :)

Now i will relax some more, lol :)

Good night all

Ting

Spending time, practising moneky behaviour

Hi

The children has a little vacation from school. Today we spend all day in here, Sara with a friend. This is difficult!! The kids are so skilled, it comes so natural to them. But most important, we had a good time :)

We met this man, he is over 50 years old. He is hanging from his finger tips. He`s doing a strict L pull up, wich is very difficult to do holding a regular grip. L pull up means your having your feets straight out, making 90 degree angle between your upper body and your feets, then you pull yourself up. Difficult. LOL :)

This is the board he`s holding on to. I promis, it`s not very deep holes!! Impessive.

We had a great day together :)

I have no headache. Woke up without a headache. Had a heavy shadow but killed it with Russian Root aka Siberian Ginseng. Read about this wonderful medicinal herb if you do not know what great herb this is. Now i feel clear and no shadow. Life is just very easy now a days. Excited for tomorrow, we will go to The Science Factory. There`s a planetarium and allot of great stuff.

CU tomorrow!!

Sweet dreams :)

Tingeling

Fun fun fun :)

Hi

I had so much fun today. Woke up PF and stayed PF all day. I started up with some RAW food, very interesting and also tast good.

Sara enjoyes climbing

I have been doing out door mountain climbing before. Climbing is so great for children, coordination training is good for everyone. I will take Sara and her friends and go do some indoor climbing. This is not high up so they are safe :)

It feels like i have won jackpot, i`m just so lucky!! Have got to know all this great people and everything jsut feel so damn normal and good!!! I couldn`t be happier. I wish the same for evryone :)

Night night all, tomorrow

Ting

Wonderful

http://youtu.be/YjBLHhvdl4M

No pain

Gooooood morning!!!

Usually when i go out from high cycle or a bad  period or whatever, i always seem to get a crash down, i get really really tired. For some reason i do not need much sleep and during high cycle it`s like i can`t sleep. Then when i come out from it i crash totally. I never fall asleep on the couch, but i do those times. So, yesterday i was hit during while i was driving to the gym. Started to hve a difficult time and as i actually forgot my hose to my O2 tank, i started to stress out a bit what to do. When we started the exerciseit went away!! Came home, had some food and a shower and i fell asleep!! Waking up i felt so tired i it felt like i couldn`t walk so i just went straight to bed. Slept almost all night and woke up without a HA!!! Still feeling very tired actually, but no pain. I wonder why i feel so tired and no energy when i go PF. Very odd.

Have a great day folks!! Stay positive!!!

Big hug

Tingeling

Good day :)

Hi

This night i have slept many hours. Funny  thing, if i sleep normal, i feel very tired. Wich i do now. But i think it`s a good thing. I don`t like spiders, i fear them. Tonight i dreamed a spider came into my bedroom. I found it when i lifte my curtain up. I hit it again and again but it didn`t seem to have any effect on it, i couldmnT`understand why but i just kept hitting it. Now and then it disappeared but i always found it again. In time i wasn`t afraid of it anymore. And finally, i managed to get rid if. Again, a very symbolic dream i thinkThink my head will be good for a little while now :) Had a hit yesterday during the day and today my usual morning hit. But now i feel very good, my heavy left sided shadow is gone and same with the constant right sided pain. Good good :)

Wishing everyone a wonderful day!! I will enjoy this day for sure :)

Later

Tingeling

Banged my head!!

Hi

I woke up today and felt a bit cranky. Then i banged my head right into a open closet door, right in the lower corner. Ouch, i nearly fainted. I always said it, cranky doesn`t lead to any good!! LOL :) Well not true this time, it gave me a good laugh. It`s funny cause if i hurt myself, it always hits the head!!! Remember when i was out in the woods and hit a tree branch? LOL, hilarious. It actually gave me some pf time, maybe this will to. Hahahaha :-D

Anyways, i still got that constant right side pain, it goes up and down but it is totally managable. (is that a word?) I chose not to go out with some friends today. Can`t expose myself for all that perfume that`s out on a friday night. I`m alright with that.

Have a nice weekend all, luv from me

Tingeling

Amazing

Hi

I had only one very shortlasting, but very intence hit today. It lasted so short it didn`t happen. I feel very happy, i feel like this

http://youtu.be/i8mz9uOvFQA

This song make me feel happy no matter what, and when i`m happy i put it on and dance a little. Everyone should try to do childish things like that. It works :)

I ordered Russian Root dried herb today, never tried that, only in capsules. The guy told me i could use it in smoothies or tea etc. Exciting!!

Good night, happy thoughts!!

Tingeling

Good feelings

Hi

Look at this, 4 children having a good time together. Nothing beats that or what?

My day has been a good head day!! Had visit, Sara and a friend came and did their homework and we had some dinner before the other girls came. Good energy, nice flow today :)

Happiness :)

Good night all

Tingeling

Felt great today

Hi

I woke up pf today and had a pf day!!! How wonderful :-D

There have been a weather change again, rain, so that might have been the problem. But whatever really. I could wonder to i go green everytime, would never get any answers for sure. LOL :-D

Had an effective day, cleaned the hole house and went grocery shopping for Sara`s club tomorrow. The girls wanted to make cupcakes so cupcakes it is. Looking forward to that, positive energy fuel :)

CU tomorrow!!

Tingeling

Good evening

Jeebs, yes your right. Right indeed!!! Thank you :)

"Your given what you can take"

Not sure how to translate it the right way, but you get me. I find this saying to be true. I can take it.

I will never give up the fight. This is my life.

http://youtu.be/9SKFwtgUJHs

Go CH`ers all over the world!!!

Tingeling

Finally finished

Hi

Had a rough night and day. Got hit double, like on each side. Fecking unbelievable. Horrible. I think i will not get that old, honestly. It`s not possible to experience pain like this without getting a heart attack as your body age. Anbd with all the Red Bull and caffein we use, oh man... No good. I felt myheart was in distress during the pain. This will eventually kill me, i know it. But when it`s time it`is time. Nothing to do about that :)

I`m exhausted and a bit sad. I`m sad cause this is just so horribly painful.

Let`s pray for a good nights sleep :)

Hug from me

Tingeling

Maren and me :)

Hi

Maren is joining in!! She`s started CrossFit. What a tough girl, she has lost 40 kg!! That`s awesome :) Now it`s time for some muscles. Go!!

CU

Big hug from me

Ting

Slept well

Hi

So i slept very well last night. I been very good today. Had a baking day, Sara went to girls scout and i went to CrossFit while she was there.

This is the result i got after only 3 months with CrossFit training. Not the skinny sick girl i was!!

The pic isn`t tat good but you get an idea. Don`t look at my arms, theyr just hanging there. Not exactly used to pose like that, flexing muscles, lol :D

So, i`m good. Very happy. Hope everyone can find this much luck in life :)

Good night, sweet dreams :)

Ting

Heads up

Hi

Yesterday i started to swell up pretty bad, my head totally changed it`s shape and i had extreme pressure. There was a huge weather change and there`s fullmoon, so that could be a factor. Woke up this morning with my usual headche, but i was up only one time at night. This is normal. I`m so used to i find it weird if i don`t. The pain got better but i was so swollen i chose not to go anywhere. Took some Astaxanthin, had a Red Bull, coffee and some bright light therapy light.and gradually it started to go down and i was fine. Good enough so i could go to a CrossFit class while Sara was at her drama class. Really fun. Normal headshape again and also my eyes look almost normal again. I had a droop on both so it looked kind of weird. Fullmoon is tonight so i know tomorrow probably will be even better. But i can be like this, this is good :) Actually so good that i was out grocery shopping for Sara`s get together tomorrow. I will make them waffles. It`s oatmeal waffles, quiet, don`t tell them, they don`t know but they love them ;)

Let`s thank for another great day. Thank you :)

Good night!!

Tingeling

Lol, look at this. CH`ers bag

Straw for the Red Bull (saves your front theeth a bit at least), six pack of Red Bull, protein shaker, running shoes and five fingers shoes. Exactly what a CH`er need. Survivel gear. Mucch better than Trex shots that will eventually give you a heart attack. I rather get it from running rtoo much, at least then i`m happy in the meantime. LOL :)

Cold cold cold :D

Hi

I am happy happy happy!!! It`s so cold outside, it`s just awesome!! If i start feel some symptoms i just go out and freeze my ass off. How nice :)

Had some shrimps and crab. Mmmm.... I`m just enjoying life. Can`t do anything else can i?

Wishin happiness to all :)

Warm hugs from the cold,

Ting

Magic

I saw a snowflake today. It was perfect. I was outside about to open my car door, there it was on the door. On some black plastic. Clear sow white on the black surface. Beautiful. Perfect. I just stood there and watched it. This was a good day :)

"The moment one gives close attention to anything, even a blade of grass, it becomes a mysterious, awesome, indescribably magnificent world in itself."
Hug :)

Tingeling

Ammo

Good evening :)

Today i started to get that right side pain again, since i had that for the last weeks, constant, i thought enogh is enough!! I had some Russian Root and it kicked in immideatly. You could ask why i didn`t do that several weeks ago? The answer is i`m used to push the limits i think. When you have excperienced years and years of severe, unbearable pain, pain is not pain anymore. Now it is like as long as i can manage i pretend it`s not there, and you stretch it. But today i felt enough was enough. And really, what`s the problem? LOL :D, it`s a natural herb!! I`m just so afraid to spend all my best ammo for the real bad times, but then i have to admit bad times. You get my point :)

Today was a good day, i had a visit from a friend and just done everything in my own rythm. I need days like that around one day a week. Now i been to Crossfit, had a shower and some food. Bedtime, i`m tired in a good way.

Night night, sweet dreams :)

Ting

Back to life

Good morning :)

Yesterday i was thinking about the last months of my life. I realized how ill i have been and how well i am now. I have been completely isolated in pain for years. The last two years i have gradually taken my life back and i would say with sucsess. Some things are changed, like i still need allot more time just being on my own than before, but that could be me getting eh... more grown up as well. There was a time, not that long ago where grocery shopping totally drained me and other days i didn`t have the strenght to go outside at all, most days.  Didn`t have strength to be social often, i just needed to be on my own. What i really learned and learned how to practice in my daily life is to take care of myself, that allows me to take a challenge when i need to. The last months of my life has been filled from morning to night and i`m enjoying it, it doesn`t exhaust me it gives me joy.

Very cold outside now, so nice :)

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act but a habit."
Aristotle

Oh, btw, i had some of that cake..... It was ok for the kids to eat, just needed to do a check ;)

Have a great day!!!

Tingeling